i'm not your manic pixie dream girl

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

girl, you're looking like a lunatic

It's time for this week's HOT GOS. (Gos is short for gossip, not gosling, or Gosling, or General Operating Systems). Not really but kind of. Sometimes I feel very non-participatory in school gossip. I don't even know who is dating whom half the time. I have really no idea what's going on. But, this girl in my class cheated on her world history test and another girl told on her! Personally I feel like if I saw it, I wouldn't tell, but whatever. The interesting thing about it is, she's a super uptight, neurotic, straight A student. As in, she makes me seem like fucking Joe Boner. She's always been like that. Even when we were young, and I was more uptight, she really took things to a new extreme. Crying during tests, having her dad do her projects. Etcetera! We're tied for fourth in class rank (though I think this semester I'm pulling ahead.) She's also super goddamn annoying. She's that girl who asks questions constantly. But, I can't help but feel kind of bad. Because a while ago we weren't super different people, you know? And I just think it sucks for her that it's all going to come crashing down.
And then also, my friend's parents are getting a divorce. She's one of my newer friends but I feel like we've become pretty close. And I feel terrible. I know that would be devastatingly difficult. The crazy thing is, she didn't really see it coming. The only thing is I think she did, subconsciously, because these last couple months she's been telling me that she's had some weird dreams about her parents fighting, and her dad cheating on her mom. Which is rather interesting from a psychological point of view, but really who gives a fuck?
Do you ever look somewhere and are surprised by the beauty you find there? Today at whole foods I saw a startlingly attractive gentleman. (According to one of my friends, I'm attracted to 'sickly looking' men. But she is attracted to guys with "big butts", and that is a direct quote, so I feel she has little room to judge.) He had round glasses, black curly hair, an angular jaw and was rail thin. I THINK I'M IN LOVE. Of course, I was walking by and so did not have the opportunity to gawk. But other times it isn't a person.  There's a flash of pale decolletage, a single bright flower. Startling beauty, is, I think, better than the expected.
And in other news, sometimes, I'm kind of a bitch. Because, sometimes, when people say something I disagree with, I just straight-up call them an idiot. It's something I need to work on.
I'm running now. I know, I'm shocked too. It's really sort of a fear of getting fat, mostly, that's doing it. I don't know. It's not too terrible. I bought a neon green sports bra the other day. I've never bought a sports bra before. They're very comfortable. Other things I have never done include: drinking Coca Cola, eating at Lantern (the most classy restaurant in the Town). Hosted a dinner party. These are things I hope to change soon. I've also been writing more. I wrote a short story the other day and now I'm trying to illustrate it. It's hard. I like to write, though. It's very... satisfying.
ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED?

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